Dear Lincoln

Dear Lincoln,

I remember the day you were born so vividly.

Mommy was up late getting her hospital bag ready because you were due in just two short weeks! So imagine my surprise when around 4 a.m. that morning I sat up suddenly in bed and my water broke everywhere! I will never forget daddy’s face when I woke him up. It was so funny! Shocked and half asleep he wanted to go straight to the hospital, but your mommy is crazy and “just had to” take a shower and put on some mascara!

Labor was slow going… I lost track of how many popsicles (preferably red) I ate. The contractions got really strong after the doctor gave mommy some medicine to help you come out faster. I began to start pushing around 11:30 p.m. My goal was to deliver you by midnight, but it took awhile to push you out. Your heart rate started to drop and the doctor had to do some crazy things to get you out… and mommy felt it!

And then it happened… the doctor lifted you up and laid you on mommy’s chest! I saw your beautiful, wonderful face for the first time! I had waited so many months for this moment. I loved you from the start, but when mommy saw you and held you I just couldn’t hold in the love and devotion that was bursting from my heart to yours! I kissed your sweet little face and told you I loved you over and over. I couldn’t even dream of what that moment would feel like until I felt it. YOU, little boy, instantly made all my dreams come true. You made me feel love that I never even knew was possible, until I held you in my arms. You cuddled against me so sweetly, looking into my eyes, without nary a peep.

I always loved reading you your book “On The Night You Were Born” because I felt that it helped convey to you the truth. On the night you were born, everything was perfect. You were perfect. You ARE perfect.

Mommy and daddy love you SO MUCH Lincoln. We wanted to celebrate your first birthday with you, but I know that God is throwing you a great party in heaven today. I just wanted you to know that you changed our lives forever and that you are still changing lives and impacting this world with your life. You accomplished more in 5 months than some people do in decades. You are our hero. I mark each day off of the calendar because I know that each day done is just one more closer to being with you again, my love.

Happy 1st Birthday Lincoln. You truly are invincible.

Love forever and always,

Mommy

Just born

Just born

All dry :)

All dry 🙂

Tired mommy and daddy looking at their little treasure

Tired mommy and daddy looking at their little treasure

So aware and content!

So aware and content!

7 thoughts on “Dear Lincoln

  1. You don’t know me…a friend of mine “liked” your post on Facebook, and I clicked on it, intrigued. I spent over an hour reading through your posts and sobbing for your loss. How hard this must be for you, to lose your child at such a tender age. I have not lost a child, so I cannot completely understand the ache of empty arms…I can only imagine how you feel. But your story is a beautiful one, and a perfect story of a mother’s (and father’s!) love for her child, and of the love and mercy of Christ. I know by reading through your posts that God has been with you throughout this past year of pain and difficulty, and that he has been your Comforter and your Rock during your grief. I just want you to know that I will be praying for you, and I will be revisiting your blog. Your story, and that of your beautiful son, Lincoln, has touched my soul. God bless you.

    • Susie, thank you so much for sharing with me. I am glad that Lincoln’s story touched you, you have given me a gift today with your kind words. He was truly the most wonderful little boy!

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