Happy Birthday Big Brother.

Finleigh knew this was a day for her brother from the moment she woke up this morning. She has a musical seahorse just like Lincoln’s (he loved it so much he was buried with it) that she sleeps with every night. It stays in her bed during the day, but today she wanted to play the music and carry it around all morning which she has never done before.

There are a few high shelves in Finleigh’s room that have some of Lincoln’s belongings as well as the angel bear that Riley gave me to hold right after Lincoln passed. I carried it all that day and slept with it for awhile. When Finleigh got up from her nap she specifically pointed to it, said “bear?” and wanted Daddy to get it down. We’ve not let her play with that bear because we don’t want anything to happen to it and the shelf is high enough she doesn’t really pay attention to what’s up there. She was adamant to have that bear and proceeded to hug it, carry it around, feed it and have it go potty.

She wanted to bring it with us when we headed to the cemetery and we just couldn’t say no so off we went. Finleigh was so sweet helping decorate for her brother’s birthday placing flowers and setting up the pin wheel.

She has a special connection with her brother ❤️

We finished off the night with a beautiful lantern for our birthday boy.

 

Our day is finally at an end, 6 birthdays celebrated.

I’m so jealous of Grandpa Freddie who made it just in time for your heavenly party baby. I know he gave you all the updates on your little sister and how much we all love and miss you. I know he was so excited to see you. Mommy, Daddy and Sissy can’t wait to celebrate with you in person for the first time someday Bubby! We love you forever!

💚HAPPY 6th BIRTHDAY LINCOLN 💚

Lincoln’s 4th Birthday

Dear Lincoln,

You are the most special little boy Mommy and Daddy could have ever asked for! We visited you and decorated your grave with pretty new flowers for your birthday. Daddy found the big green ones 🙂 We talked to you about your new little sister who is coming, but we know you already know her, our sweet boy.

We had so much fun lighting your lanterns with Aunt Rachel, Uncle MJ, and Grandma. We saw the two shooting stars you sent as soon as all the lanterns were in the air! What a beautiful ending for your birthday, to see the dark sky lit up with symbols of our love for you, and a celebration of your life. We miss you so much Linky… We will all be together as a family again soon. Until then, we will keep celebrating you everyday of our lives.

Love you forever,

Mommy and Daddy

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New flowers for Bubby’s birthday

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Mommy and Aunt Rachel getting the lanterns ready!

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Daddy and Mommy getting ready to launch a lantern!

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Mommy launching her lantern!

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There goes Daddy’s!

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Beautiful!

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We love you Lincoln! Happy 4th Birthday!

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Lincoln’s Memory Tree at Grandma and Grandpa’s house

Dear Lincoln

Dear Lincoln,

I remember the day you were born so vividly.

Mommy was up late getting her hospital bag ready because you were due in just two short weeks! So imagine my surprise when around 4 a.m. that morning I sat up suddenly in bed and my water broke everywhere! I will never forget daddy’s face when I woke him up. It was so funny! Shocked and half asleep he wanted to go straight to the hospital, but your mommy is crazy and “just had to” take a shower and put on some mascara!

Labor was slow going… I lost track of how many popsicles (preferably red) I ate. The contractions got really strong after the doctor gave mommy some medicine to help you come out faster. I began to start pushing around 11:30 p.m. My goal was to deliver you by midnight, but it took awhile to push you out. Your heart rate started to drop and the doctor had to do some crazy things to get you out… and mommy felt it!

And then it happened… the doctor lifted you up and laid you on mommy’s chest! I saw your beautiful, wonderful face for the first time! I had waited so many months for this moment. I loved you from the start, but when mommy saw you and held you I just couldn’t hold in the love and devotion that was bursting from my heart to yours! I kissed your sweet little face and told you I loved you over and over. I couldn’t even dream of what that moment would feel like until I felt it. YOU, little boy, instantly made all my dreams come true. You made me feel love that I never even knew was possible, until I held you in my arms. You cuddled against me so sweetly, looking into my eyes, without nary a peep.

I always loved reading you your book “On The Night You Were Born” because I felt that it helped convey to you the truth. On the night you were born, everything was perfect. You were perfect. You ARE perfect.

Mommy and daddy love you SO MUCH Lincoln. We wanted to celebrate your first birthday with you, but I know that God is throwing you a great party in heaven today. I just wanted you to know that you changed our lives forever and that you are still changing lives and impacting this world with your life. You accomplished more in 5 months than some people do in decades. You are our hero. I mark each day off of the calendar because I know that each day done is just one more closer to being with you again, my love.

Happy 1st Birthday Lincoln. You truly are invincible.

Love forever and always,

Mommy

Just born

Just born

All dry :)

All dry 🙂

Tired mommy and daddy looking at their little treasure

Tired mommy and daddy looking at their little treasure

So aware and content!

So aware and content!